What if I pray to Allah SWT that I wanna die. Would he listen to me? Cux I'm in so much,mental pain from years and it's been a long time now but my life isn't changing. Things are becoming worse and worse. No idea how to keep living even when all I see is dark.
I’m so sorry about your situation, and I have been in similar ones, sometimes for years. I suffer from multiple chronic conditions and have to take over 10 different drugs every day just to function. Whenever you wish for death, you can know that you are on the proving ground. That’s when you prove your patience and loyalty toward God.
I highly recommend that you read my essay: Islam and Depression: A Survival Guide