It all happened out of nowhere and I happened to commit zina and I eventually fell in love with that guy and that guy loves someone else and I’m unable to move on. I repent all I could. I tried to distant myself and tried everything possible. I’m really guilty and I don’t know how do I get over it. Can you please suggest me something. I’m unable to love myself, I’ve lost my self worth. I feel like ending it all but I know I’ll be commenting another sin. Please help.
Alaikumassalam wa rahmatullah,
Read 100 books, either non-fiction or fiction written before 1960, and once you are done you will be a completely different person with a different view of yourself and life, and you will be far better able to make sense of your situation and get beyond it (inshaAllah).
Please also check out my answer God has not abandoned you.